the S.I.S. (Social Immune System)

This is an edit of a post I made on an older blog, but I found it's relevance hasn't diminished.
Society, specifically western society, has evolved to kill you if you do not participate in it in a way that adds to it's growth and success efficiently and in a manner that it 'desires'.
Oh, it's subtle about it, and it's unspoken, so no one can warn you that it's about to happen. If too many people knew, it's effectiveness at getting rid of the undesirables would be compromised.
A simple example: If you don't do your taxes, you can't get medicare.
If you don't have medicare, you're more likely to suffer from illness longer, and therefore more likely to die.
Without an income, you cannot afford a place to live, which increases the stress on your body, which leads to a greater chance of death.
If you appear as an 'outsider' you will be less likely to receive aid from citizens, and therefore more likely to die.
Less work is done to investigate and prevent crimes committed on 'outsiders' which increases the probability of death, etc...


Members of society will also tend to resent you if you do not participate in the pre-approved methods. Resentment tends to manifest in passive methods of pushing people to the outskirts. Such as getting dropped to the bottom of waiting lists, or refused service at businesses. Things like that will increase the likelihood of not getting healthy food, or medicine in a timely manner, etc... all those add some percentiles on to the chances of dying earlier.
And resentment is especially strong in those that seem to be 'making it' in ways which are not 'sanctioned' by society. Look at how marginalized prostitution and illegal drug distribution are.
So try to remember this the next time you refuse to help someone, or even ignore/avoid someone, because you find them unsavoury, or a 'Damned Hipster', or whatever your personal disliked group. You are pushing them one step closer to the edge.
You are acting as a sleeper agent for the status quo.
This may sound a bit like whining about how the world is out to get me, etc... But as a suicidal rock god once said, “Just because you're paranoid, don't mean they're not after you”.

Active Dreaming

So I've been working on Active Dreaming, and encouraging my Dreaming self to be more open to receiving information/messages from the Dream.

The other night I had done some ritual preparation/energy work to that end, and as I was in the twilight state between wakefulness and sleep I thought I had accidentally struck myself in the face, but it turned out it to be a flash of contact of some kind.

It was so forceful it felt like a physical blow, and was over just as quickly. There was someone saying/yelling something, nd a feeling of impact from 'outside' or the 'other side', and a spot of coloured light (red/white/yellow I think) about the size of a silver dollar. It happened so fast I couldn't make out what was said. But it was quite shocking.

The impression I got was not negative or hostile from the encounter. It was more along the lines of a pickaxe trying to get through a wall, or a burst of information.

So, while I didn't have any remembered dreams the next night, my sister did.

She dreamed of being on board a plane in flight, and in a square white room around a square white table were her, her son, and two others. One with light hair and one with dark hair. Each was with an animal. On her right, her son, with a fish. Across from her was the light haired person with a skinned, but alive, rabbit, and on her left was the dark haired person with her cat. She had a lizard. She had killed and skinned the rabbit previously, which had returned to life, and she had been asking those with her what to do (as you can imagine she was somewhat concerned with the skinned rabbit returning to life, but it (the rabbit) forgave her, and this is when they all found themselves around the table. And they each had to come up with a word to complete something. The son's (fish) word was 'Alacrity'. The light haired person's (skinned rabbit) was 'compassion'. The dark haired person's (cat) was 'steadfastness'. But her word (lizard) She couldn't decide on before the dream ended. I found this dream absolutely fascinating, and simply pregnant with symbolism.

Apparently Morpheus has been hanging out with us.

An explanation of the Title (Tiamatrix)

The title comes from a personal revelation of mine regarding the nature, and metaphysical cosmology of existence.

First off I need to define some terms, and some perspectives.

When discussing things like the origins of reality in a metaphysical sense one must first give the caveat that everything stated is a metaphor. When you get to the very beginning of things most of what we conceive of didn't exist, and were so primal you can't define them except through metaphor. What I call 'Gods' and 'Spirits' and the like are base 'concepts' that have some kind of agency. I cannot say that they had wills and minds as we conceive them, as we a re talking about the fundamental building blocks of the experience of existing, and the nature of reality.

Also, one of the main perspectives I come from is that the only thing I can say for sure about anything is that I seem to exist. When I say 'I', I am referring to awareness, or consciousness. Everything in existence other than that is highly suspect. In other words, I come from the perspective that experience, or the experiencer, are primary, and what is experienced is either secondary, or illusionary, in the sense of impossible to prove (proof being an axiom of a material realist world view, as something has to be 'real' for proof to exist).

So. My personal revelation is roughly as follows. What I call 'Tiamat' is, in essence (remember, metaphors here), the primal 'stuff' that is experienced by consciousness. It is what matter is based on. It is the object to consciousness’s subject. Consciousness is the 'active' principle (yang) whereas Tiamat is the reactive (yin). This can be conceived of as a disembodied 'Spirit' or consciousness, entering into a realm of existence, or a 'body'. This 'Body/Realm' tracks very well on to the Primal Deity Tiamat, hence why I use the name. Tiamatrix is a play on the name to describe it's nature as the Matrix of the world. In both it's structural sense and to equate it somewhat with the Matrix of the film of the same name.

Those of you who are familiar with the Myths surrounding Tiamat, will also recognize that there was a divine agency that killed and dismembered Tiamat to create the world.

This is where I have blended some Gnostic concepts and some Mesopotamian myths.

I encourage those of you not familiar with the myths surrounding the slaying of Tiamat to read up on it as it is fascinating, and tragic. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tiamat

At the beginning of things, there was The Primal Consciousness (the One), and the Primal Experience (Tiamat). They found each other, and played many games of both experiencing and being experienced. They were mirrors of each other, lovers, and siblings, parent and child to each other. And through these unions, children weere born (consciousness under the illusion of separateness became many gods and goddesses). As these children were mixes of other concepts, they became distinct in character, which was disruptive to the older, more primal gods (think a cacophony versus a single note, or a simple melody). This caused a rift between the old and the new. Murders were planned and wars were fought. The One was slain, But there was a favoured child, one of the newer gods who loved Tiamat, and lamented the death of the one, so Tiamat gave him control over the realms (in the original myth by giving him the tablet of destinies). He challenged the head of the new gods (Marduk, or the Demiurge) to battle, but he lost. The Demiurge then took the tablet of destinies and slew Tiamat, and made the world from her body. Then took the essence of her champion and mixed it with the stuff of the world to create humanity. This is the condition we find ourselves in. We are the essence of that failed hero trapped in a prison made from the corpse of our Lover and Mother.

That is the Tiamatrix.

Spirals & Spins

I was thinking about the old "clockwise for invoking, counterclockwise for banishing" canard, an it struck me. If this principle is valid, it means magick energy flows in a spiral. If it flows towards you it follows a clockwise (from your perspective) spin. And if it flows away from you, it flows in a counterclockwise spin.

So the spiral in the image, if we assume it increases in size as it gets closer, would be the approximate shape of the spiral (of course in three dimensions). If so, this could be applied to magical work targeting others. If you wanted to affect someone you would aim it at them and put a counterclockwise spin on it, as it would then be moving from you to them (clockwise from their perspective). It also seems to apply to reiki. Also, if true, could make for some very quick magical defence techniques. This raises some interesting metaphysical questions. 

With the model presented, to draw something to you, you would spin it clockwise on your end. If you look at the LRP (Lesser Ritual of the Pentagram), as you go along the cardinal directions you move in a clockwise direction relative to the ground you stand on, so you are drawing up earth energy

I believe that the idea of Invoking as the 'raising' of energy, and it's association with clockwise motion is a bit of a misunderstanding of the underlying principles o this spiral motion. So even when attempting to cast a 'positive' spell on another person, the motion is often clockwise.

You actually can't 'invoke' anything in to another person as 'invoking' has to do with drawing things in to yourself. The spin is simply the direction you send the energy. Clockwise is inwards (relative to you), counterclockwise is outwards (relative to you). So it's not the type of subtle energy that determines the spin, but where you what it to go.

I think this is where the idea of the quality and the spin got confused, as one normally sends unwanted or 'negative' energy away from oneself, and wanted or 'positive' energy towards oneself. So the associations of positive and negative got confused with clockwise and counterclockwise. This leads to some interesting magical models, for instance, if you want to set up a continuous flow between yourself and a target, you'd want to construct two spirals, one with a clockwise spin and one with a counterclockwise spin.

The classic 'Heart' shape is two golden spirals with opposite spins touching one another.